year one

i was pretty sure that i wouldn't be able to keep this up for a year. & i am not exactly sure that i have. - at least in the way that i was thinking when i began.

i was supposed to become more transparent on these pages. i was striving for less ambiguity. that, i am fairly sure, has not happened.

but here is a thought that i have been turning around: what if it is that i actually communicate openly, honestly & sincerely but that my being, which i attempt to express, is just inherently ambiguous? what if it is simply that i am an ambiguous being?

hm...

anyway, i think this is a good experiment. the experiment of mumbling into the void.

we'll see how long i can keep it up...