i feel artistically schizophrenic. i've been working in so many different directions for so long that i believe i have fractured my brain. i wrote in this previous note about my obsessive - probably compulsive - writing habit. and i have behaved in much the same way as a builder, painter, photographer, filmmaker, actor & human ... & i keep trying to come up with some kind of name or some kind of title that can describe how i feel about my self and what it is i do. throughout

Jack Bierce mentioned "opening sacred & secret doors" in the conversation that became my first blog post & it's been twirling around in my mind since i read it. back in the day i flew this same flag as Bierce - this idea was my code. my main inspiration was probably this letter written by Arthur Rimbaud: I mean that you have to be a seer, mold oneself into a seer. The poet makes himself into a seer by a long, involved and logical derangement of all the senses. Every kind of